It Was Always Meant To Be 🌈

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Great Day! 
Welcome to my blog! My name is Angel and I am from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. I will talk about and explore my journey through motherhood. In my eyes, it feels like I was always meant to be a mama but I never came across the right situation or opportunity to become one. Meaning, I didn't meet the right man to give me what I've always dreamed of having. A family. I didn't want the typical baby mama/baby daddy drama that's so common now. I just wanted to have kids with one man and actually have the family that I have never had. Currently, I was blessed to have two beautiful kids. My daughter, Lianna, is Resting in Paradise. She passed away on January 9th, 2024 when I was 37 weeks pregnant. I was induced and had a vaginal birth on January 11th, 2024. It was the WORST few days of my entire life! Life after that became so dark for me. During that first year after Lianna's death, I sunk into a DEEP depression. I could not stand the sight of another child or pregnant woman. For me, I didn't have anything against them just to make that clear, I just could not stand the feelings and thoughts that I has whenever I saw a child. All I could think about is the trauma that I went through, almost losing my own life and losing my first born. My babygirl was gone and is never coming back. All of my dreams and plans were snatched away from me. That reality was UNBEARABLE. I really wanted another baby, my rainbow baby. Not to replace Lianna of course but to give her a sibling. So my partner and I planned for another baby. When I found out I was pregnant again in 2025, it was bittersweet. Yes I was excited, however, I was also scared. I didn't want the same trauma to happen again. Yet, I was still optimistic and didn't let my negative thoughts overpower me. The second time around was a high risk pregnancy. It included multiple appointments, emergency room visits and a lot of phone calls to my doctors. I was very cautious and paid attention to EVERYTHING. Fast forward, I gave birth to a baby boy on December 9th, 2025. His name is Bryson and he is almost 3 months now. He has shown me what motherhood is really about. We are currently learning together. Everything is coming naturally but of course as a parent, I'm always open to learning more. As a stay at home mama, I have a lot to do in one day. My days are always filled with tending to my son, entertaining us, and house chores. I'm glad that I found my rhythm because, at first, it was very overwhelming. As time went on, I got used to my new life and began to love it even more. I ALWAYS lose sleep, though. There's days where I want to nap and I'm not able to. There's also days where I want to mostly relax or do a little self care and sometimes I'm not able to either. I never complain because this is the life that I asked for. Again, I was always meant to be a mama. And I will always love being a mama. 


I wanted to start this blog to share my story and for other mother's to relate to someone like me. Motherhood is a beautiful journey and I hope everyone reading this will continue to read every post that I create. Come with me through this journey that's filled with love, growth and family. 


           ❤️❤️❤️ Angel ❤️❤️❤️

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