A Mama's Everyday Life

      I did not realize how busy I would be as a "new" mama. I emphasize new because before Bryson, I was already a mama, just didn't feel like one. Now I was given the opportunity and the blessing to actually do everything that I have been dreaming of. It seems like time just goes way too fast now. I swear there's not too many hours in a day. This is really a 24/7 commitment and responsibility. I start my day with coffee and think about everything that needs to get done. Bryson wakes up not too long after so of course I change his diaper and feed him. Sometimes he stays up for a while then goes back to sleep. While he's awake, we have some fun by either watching an old school cartoon, playing with his teething toys, listening to music or just simply talking to him while he sits up on my lap. I love that I am able to let him watch all the shows I watched as a kid, they are way better than these new shows, I'll tell you that. Since its getting warm outside, we have been going for more walks. It's so refreshing, watching him experience the outside and look so interested in certain things is so nice to see. We both definitely need air sometimes. He loves his chair more now too, even when he's crying and I can't figure out why, I put him in his chair then he's fine. He used to hate it but now he loves it and I find myself multitasking by rocking his chair with my foot.  Most times, I wash his bottles twice a day because who wants to wash a bunch of bottles at one time? Not me! I also clean at least once, sometimes more. Even though he's not walking or crawling, there's still a mess somehow. Basically, I just have to put things back in their places after changing or feeding him. While Bryson takes his naps, I try to tend to myself. Whether it's taking a hot bath, listen to music or try to take a nap with him. Even watching my comfort shows for 15 minutes, while I eat, is good enough for me. Sometimes I don't have much time for myself but that's okay, I'm used to it. But I at least try to do it every day, trying is enough. Even if it's only for a few minutes, it's still something and I'm always grateful for it. Right now, I focus on doing something every day for my business. Either work on content to post, brainstorming blog posts, or simply looking at my insights for my social media accounts and website. Staying active with it consistently will help me reach my goals. I'm also in a job training program for Human Resources. A field that I've been wanting to work in for at least 10 years. Yes 10! I made myself sound old but trust me I'm not. I have committed to doing classwork every day which helps me turn in my work and study in enough time. I don't like to rush or get backed up so I will keep the momentum going until I get all of my certifications. I plan to find a job in the field and work from home for a while. I don't mind being a stay-at-home mama, but I do miss making my own money. Which is why I started a business and applied to a training program to further my education and enter a new field. I also didn't want Bryson in daycare so having a remote job that is flexible, with the ability to gain experience, will be so helpful. I know it sounds like I'm doing a lot and trust me it is, but I have gained time management skills over the years. It might seem like I'm all over the place as I go about my day, but that's just how I roll. I have mastered it at this point, so I am able to get everything done and still not be overwhelmed. Instead of being overwhelmed, I feel motivated and also feel like I'm working towards a better future. A better future for myself and a great one for Bryson. I definitely do everything for him! When the sun sets, I am exhausted, sometimes feel a little burnt out. But at least I get a lot done every day. Once my son goes to sleep, I'm scrolling through my phone or finishing up something that I had to do. I almost always stay up later than I should then regret it in the morning. He still wakes up a few times throughout the night, a lot of times he goes right back to sleep. Other times, I'm up for a little while. The morning comes then I do it all over again. I honestly haven't been writing in my journal, creating art or writing music as much as I want to. I need to dedicate some time for that, for sure. My son and everything that I do from my experiences to my hard work, puts me in a great mood. WHAT A LIFE!!